You’ll never understand how much I hate being around her, why I hate seeing her. I hate seeing you and her together. When the three of us are hanging out you treat me so god damn different then when its just you and me hanging out It hurts so bad. I don’t even feel like your best friend when you’re with her I feel like just a friend.

I hate that you like me but then you like her I hate it. I hate it that when we’re alone you act like you really like me and then when you’re with her you act like you really like her. Its confusing. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve always loved you and it hurts to see you love someone else. It hurts to see you care about someone else like I care about you. And it hurts that when you’re with her, she’s your best friend, not me. And it hurts that when you’re with her it’s like I don’t even exist. I don’t want to live like this anymore

It hurts that I have to act like I don’t even care and like it doesn’t bother me
I don’t ever want to be around her